I don’t understand why I must make it so hard for myself. I’m surrounded by people who want to help me, and methods to do it, but I can’t make any of it work.
It’s not how I should be thinking, though. I know that.
I understand how you feel. It's different, but it reminds me of my troubles with my sealing power. No matter how much time I spent attempting to unlock it, it never did. No matter how many people encouraged me, pressured me, practiced with me, I never was able to manage.
When it finally did unlock, it was in a moment of true desperation. When I thought I was about to lose everything in my life, because I was.
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I don’t understand why I must make it so hard for myself. I’m surrounded by people who want to help me, and methods to do it, but I can’t make any of it work.
It’s not how I should be thinking, though. I know that.
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I understand how you feel. It's different, but it reminds me of my troubles with my sealing power. No matter how much time I spent attempting to unlock it, it never did. No matter how many people encouraged me, pressured me, practiced with me, I never was able to manage.
When it finally did unlock, it was in a moment of true desperation. When I thought I was about to lose everything in my life, because I was.
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It’s possible that I’m simply not committed enough. My heart aches, but maybe I’ve gotten too complaisant.
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It sounds terrible, but you're not alone. The struggle is remembering you weren't always like this.
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Thank you, Zelda. You’ve given me some things to think about.